In the hands of Guilt

Guilt is a strong feeling that anchors you.

He neither let you exhale, nor let you inhale air,

He burns you inside out.

Everyone undergoes guilt,

Tell me who didn’t.

After all it is a universal feeling.

But do you feel the different sensations he produces?

Like sudden throbbing, galloping,

And then you get drenched with tears.

Guilt is a basic feeling.

He fasten other secondary feelings with a string

And enters into a host.

Ask me about the secondary feelings,

Regret and repentance I shall answer with.

Guilt freezes time and shoots you.

He obstructs you to do the things you want,

Decision is yours, if you want to give him the power to shoot.

Do not let him hold your hands,

He will tell you the tales of fantasy.

Then he shall throw you to the dungeon of sparkling black pit,

Called dream.

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